A life taken

There was a girl named Kelly. I had only met her twice at the local pool competition at the pub near home. I always remembered her name because it was the same as my surname. She was always friendly, happy and kind to everyone. I remember the last time I saw her at the competition, I was ready to go home after losing my game as usual. I was watching Kelly play and made sure I watched it to completion as I thought it  rude to not do so when she was always so attentive to others. This was two Wednesday's ago as I was unable to go last week as I had nobody to watch Miss 8.

This morning I received a phone call from my friend C. She told me that Kelly had been found murdered in her home and her ex partner in the home also had hung himself. It was a murder-suicide. What a gutless piece of shit to do this to her!!!!!! I didn't really know her well but this did effect me quite a bit. I went to the comp this evening and there were a lot of people there for Kelly. There were some kind words shared, a beautiful song played and stories told.

This was something that should not of happened and I do wish the authorities would take more care in protecting those woman with restraining orders so that things like this don't happen.

Fly free Kelly xxxxxx

I lasted three weeks

Well I managed to stay if the cigarettes for three weeks. I caved today when I bought a packet. I felt like having a few drinks tonight and smoking sort of goes hand in hand with that. I have only had two and to be honest I didn't enjoy them all that much. Any smart person would then probably realize they don't like them any longer and quit for good however knowing me I will continue and grow to like them again. It is just a habit however and I am going to see if perhaps I can get away with just buying one packet a week. This will be a big change from my usual 4 or so packets a day. I am not beating myself up about starting again, if anything I am proud of the fact that after 21 or so years of smoking I managed to QUIT for 3 weeks Cold Turkey. Not bad for a first attempt.

Since quitting however I have really changed my ways. I am not as lazy as I used to be. I am getting up early at least three days a week and going to the gym and really enjoying it.  I am also taking my dog for a walk every day or two which I never used to do. I used to always get mad at him for being so naughty but truth be told he was just  bored and lonely particularly with Senna not being around anymore. These walks are enjoyable for both of us and I am really going to dedicate more time to my puppy.

Thailand again

Well Miss 8 and I have been home from our latest Thailand trip for 8 days now. This means I have been off the cigarettes for 8 days but that's a whole other whining blog that I will save for another time.

Anyway we had all planned to meet at the airport at 8pm on Sunday 11th Aug which was also Jo\'s birthday. After checking in all of our bags we had a drink and then at about 11.30pm we all boarded our plane. There were 9 of us consisting of 4 grown ups and 5 kids. I was dreading the 8 or 9 hour flight and thankfully the kids managed to get some sleep. I was sitting in the middle of Madi and my friends daughter Ruby and they both managed to get a few hours shut eye. We arrived in Bankok at about 6am and after about an our and a half boarded the second flight to take us to Phuket. We finally arrived there at about midday Thai time and got our various transfers to the hotel. Graceland hotel was ok although it was no HOLIDAY INN. Being that this was my third trip to Thailand it didn't seem my experience or knowledge was really listened to and we ended up at a hotel that was responsible for the majority of us getting sick in one way or another. Anyway Jo and the kids had an adjoining room to Madeline and I, and Kath's family were on the other side of us. It was a wonderful holiday although not as relaxing as I was hoping. I did manage to get two massages in as well as a 75 min facial however not once did I sun bake by the pool which is a regret I have.

In regards to sight seeing this time around we once again visited the Phuket zoo as well as Fantasea. This was another suggestion I made as we had already seen it and the others thought it was fantastic. Madi surprised me by her bravery as she insisted at Phuket zoo to have a photo with a Crocodile.

  

Madeline, me and the big Orangutan

My brave girl and the Crocodile (this croc had just been the main one in the croc show so he wasn't drugged)

Ruby, Oscar and Madeline at Phuket zoo

Madi and I also went to Tiger Kingdom for the first time which was fantastic. At Tiger Kingdom you can choose the size tiger you prefer and go in the cage/enclosure with them for 10 min for photos etc. Kids were only allowed in with the baby tiger so we went in with two gorgeous tigers who were 4 months old and got some great photos. I then decided I wanted to go in with the big ones so I went back and spent time with about 4 big scary tigers. They do have signs everywhere at this place saying they do not drug the tigers so I was cautious thinking they could snap at any moment.

 

Madeline with the 4 month old tiger.

 

Me with one of the Big Mammas

Madeline and I at the Big Buddha.

I did a little shopping but not as much as other trips. Seems I may be a little over it. I had told myself about 5 weeks before leaving for this holiday that I had planned to have my last cigarette in Bangkok on the trip home which I have done and now I am irritable and desperate for one. I am not sure if I will last but I will try.

Farewell Senna.

On Saturday 20th July 2013 my beloved dog Senna died. She was about 16 years old so I knew it was coming. She was slowly getting slower and slower on her feet and was blind and very much deaf. The day she past though things happened sooo quickly. She appeared normal when I fed her. (unless of course Jimmy ate her food without me noticing) Later that evening I heard her barking outside, it was a very cold night and I assumed she was having trouble getting in the doggy door as she had been having trouble with steps and there was a small one. I stuck my head out the doggy door and she was less than a metre away from me. I called to her and she didn't acknowledge me. I yelled and even threw a small handful of dry food at her and she only briefly flinched. I realised at this time things were not right. I went outside and took hold of her collar to lead her to the doggy door and she just collapsed. My parents were here at the time thankfully and my father picked her up, wrapped in a blanket and we went to the animal hospital. They examined her for a while and we all mutually decided that the humane thing would be to have her euthanized. She couldn't even stand up. It was done quickly and peacefully.

I am going to miss that little girl. She was also the last thing that I had linking me to my first love who bought her for me. :-(

Thailand

I am sorry it has been so long since I made a blog entry. Since my last entry I have been to Thailand. On Wed 3rd April mum, Madeline and I went to the airport as our flight was leaving at 0:1:00am in the morning. After a short stop at Singapore we arrived in Phuket at about 8am. We found our transfer who drove us an hour or so to the resort in Khao Lak. The Sands resort was absolutely beautiful. I discovered that most of the guests staying there were also using the great deal from Deals.com. The room was beautiful, the  pools were gorgeous and the beach was right out the front. The area of Khao Lak itself is extremely quiet and Madeline had a lovely time playing in the pools and mum and I enjoyed a number of treatments in the spa. I wondered around the small town a bit however there was not really a lot of shopping. We had decided to do a shopping tour for one day to Patong however then decided to cut our stay at Khao Lak short by 3 nights and we booked to stay at the Holiday Inn in Patong for our last 3 nights to get some shopping in. I love love the busy atmosphere of a place like Patong and to be honest I think the way we did it was great and I would consider it for my next holiday. Going to stay at a quiet relaxing resort for a few nights and then moving to a busy area. In Patong I did a bit of shopping but to be honest I just enjoy wondering around the markets or the shopping center and taking a break at a little bar for a drink etc.

It was a lovey holiday however now I need to save save save for my next one.

here are some photos.

 The resort

 The beach at Khao Lak

 Madeline

 Madeline after collecting shells

 Madeline again

Me and my girl.

Speed Dating

I have just returned home from my first attempt at Speed Dating. My girlfriend Renee asked me to go a few days ago and although I was hesitant at first I did finally agree. I did however back out again when I knew it was going to cost be $90. I did think that was a little steep. After agreeing and going online to pay my $80 (it had dropped $10 when I signed up #winning) I had to upload a photo and do a bit of a profile. Anyway the night started at 7pm and we arrived and were given name badges. There was quite a large group of 17 boys and 17 girls. When everyone had arrived the girls took a seat and one by one a boy would sit opposite you and you would have a minim 5 minute date. I guess I didn't go there expecting much of the night which is why I didn't even feel nervous which is extremely unusual for me. Renee however was shaking like a leaf. Everyone was nice although a little too old for me IMO. I ticked the 'yes' box for 5 of the gentleman and if they have also ticked the 'yes' box against my name then we get our email address exchanged. I am not expecting much and to be honest I am not sure if I would answer the email anyway however we will see what happens.

Tomorrow is Naomi and Rob's wedding which is so so so exciting!

Merry Christmas

Well Christmas Day for 2012 is coming to a close. Madeline went to bed earlier than I remember her going to bed in a long time last night. She was so looking forward to Santa visiting with all of her prezzies. She woke up at 7:10am dragging a very tired mummy, nana and pop with her to watch her unwrap all of her presents. Once again I went overboard with the gift buying. She loved everything she got and was super excited when I told her that I got us tickets to the One Direction concert next year. After she unwrapped present after present after present etc etc it was time for a late breakfast and to get ready to go out for lunch. We were going to the MCG for lunch with my mum, dad, brother and his girlfriend of 10+ years Emma as well as my cousin Julie. Lunch was ok but I did prefer the Christmas a few years back when we went to the RACV club. It had more of a Chrissy feel that year. Madeline and I then dropped Julie off and went home to get her ready once again to return to Anglesea. She has gone again now and even though I do love the occasional break that I get when she goes away with my parents this particular Christmas night I am a little lonely.

The best present I received however came in the mail yesterday and it was the signed agreement that Madeline's father sent from overseas agreeing to me having sole custody. That has definitely made me less stressed to have that worry lifted.

Here are some snaps of my girl.
 

So excited with her One Direction pens.

And her Smiggle set.

And another Beanie Kid

Spongebob Pj's

Monster High Wii game and lip glosses.

And a pic of the two of us at lunch with Santa.

Time to start dressing like a trendy mama!

Today mum and dad have taken Madeline to Anglesea for the night so I have the day
and night to myself. I went to the shops early this morning so that I could spend the
rest of the day inside at home seeing it is supposed to be 34 degrees. I have been
browsing the net for a bit and found a thread in regards to dressings like a 35 year old.
Now I am 36 and to be honest i didn't think my dress sense was to bad although it
appears from reading 'said thread' that 3/4 pants are definitely the 'NO GO' zone. I
wasn't aware of this but it does make sense. When I think of the 3/4 pants that I have
they are very unflattering. What I really want to do is to go to my wardrobe right now
and clear the majority if it and give it all to the Salvos. My only worry is that I won't
leave myself with an clothes and I kinda need something to wear.

I am also trying to lose some weight. Although it is a very very slow process (lost about 3kg in the last month or two). I was thinking of browsing the web tonight and maybe buying some new clothes although knowing me and the fact that I am thinking of having some drinks tonight the 3 or so kg I have lost will come back. Hey I guess I could try some exercise.......

Just before I finish off this entry I have seen my Hypnotist once again and this time she
finally hypnotized me. At first I wasn't sure if it had worked because I thought that
maybe I was thinking to hard when answering her questions however I do believe it
worked. She had me going back to the times when My ex (Madeline's father) and I
would spend the weekends at home pigging out on chicken and chips and drinking
coke. Even back before then to when i was about 21 and my boyfriend and I at the
time would spend a lot of time eating crap like pizza and chips. When I got together
with him I weighed about 58kg. We went out for 3 years and when he cheated on me
(with someone who looked like I did when he first got together with me) I would say Iwas probably 20kg heavier when he cheated on me and broke my heart. Don't know what it was about him but I do know my heart has never truly healed. Makes me feel a little better though knowing that his now 'wife' the same girl he cheated on me with has now beefed up a little and he is bold as bold! But going back even further to when I was 19 or so and dating someone who for 1.5 years put me through a lot of hurt and verbal abuse. At this time I was a 55kg blond hottie! Regardless of how i looked it never seemed enough. He would still say things things to me like 'bury your head it might improve your face'. He would flirt constantly with others right under my nose, he would apparently cheat over and I've again one of which was with one of my best friends at the time. she is a friend NO LONGER. Anyway I really feel as though these appointments are really going to help me to from this moment on start having the life i wont to have. Don't want to
waste anymore time.

Here are some hot mama's for inspiration!

So it has been a while...

So it has been a while since I have done a blog entry although not a lot has been happening.  A few entries back I mentioned my friend Nicole got married. A week before her wedding I had my acrylic nails removed. This was a huge deal for me because I have had them for the last 16 years at least. I have attempted to remove them before but I just went back to my old nail biting self. Anyway this time this hasn't been the case although they are very weak. I have always kept my nails very short and I am just trying many many things to try and strengthen them. My cuticles need some work as well so I am going to attempt daily applications of hand cream. Anyway this is how they are looking at the moment.

I desperately wont to paint them because I love the look of dark polish on short nails but because I am in the process of using a product called Revitanail I am pretty sure this wouldn't work on top of polish so I am just wearing them naked for the moment.

I also had an incident recently in my car. I was driving home on the freeway going 100km and I was in the middle lane. Suddenly I saw this big piece of metal or something coming straight for me. It had obviously come off a car in front somewhere. Anyway it was coming straight for my windscreen and I am sure if it had of hit it them I would not be here now writing this post. Anyway it do drop a little and ended up hitting my bonnet. I didn't think much of it at first, I was just thinking to myself 'Gee I hope that didn't damage my car...' it wasn't until I had arrived at my destination that I realised it had in fact done a lot of damage. The photo below only shows the top bit, there is more below but I didn't want to post a picture of my Rego. 

So now I have had to put in a claim with my insurance company which is going to cost me my excess of $625 and have the hassle of getting it fixed. I am taking it in next week.

I also went and had an appointment with a hypnotist to try and help me with weight loss. I love to eat food and I think I have an eating addiction. I am trying really hard however at the moment and have lost about 3kg. Anyway her main area is dealing with weight loss and her website is also called HypnoSlim. So I went and saw her for my first appointment which is really just talking and quite intense therapy to try and get to the root of the problem. She had told me on the phone that a lot of people are done after 3 sessions so I thought at $145 a pop I can afford this. Anyway after her hour with me our conversation went like this:

Me: So you said most people are fine after 3 sessions?

Her: Unfortunately you are not one of them. You are not an easy fix!!!!!

So I am sure I will be seeing her for a while however I am feeling really good about it as I think she could really help me. I actually feel that I have wasted my life and when I look at how I am sure I would be in the next 10+ years if I continue along the road I am on I am going to be extremely depressed. I am now feeling uplifted and looking forward to this challenge. My first real appointment is next week so I will let you know how it goes.

Until next time :-)

My Fitness Pal

So I have decided to have another attempt at weight loss and have done well for the last few days except for perhaps today. The title of this post relates to an app that I have recently put on to my IPhone. I have always heard of the benefits of calorie counting and I know it is a big part of the weight loss on shows such as The Biggest Loser but in my opinion was always to complicated. Don't get me wrong I still think it is bloody complicated but this app does everything for you. It starts off daily allowing me 1200 calories. Every time you consume something you can search for it in the search bar and you can also scan the bar code. When some exercise is added to the day that can also be entered to give you some extra calories. For example I started off with my 1200 this morning and then I had a piece if toast with Vegemite which totalled 94 calories. Since I have started this little health kick I had been having a Celebrity Slim Chocolate shake for my morning breakfast however was shocked when I saw that one of these shakes is 211 calories. Exercise is also something that. Am never in the mood to do because I am totally lazy, this is not a good thing when you are addicted to and love food as much as I do. I am a bit of a closet eater and sneak shit loads of food when nobody is around. Anyway Madeline was at a rollerblading party today and I decided to have a go. I had a ball and to be honest wasn't to bad on the old roller blades. I skated pretty intensely for about 15 minutes. Anyway there is a section in the My Fitness Pro app where you can enter any exercise that you may have done in any given day and I searched and found rollerblading for 15 minutes gave me another 258 calories to play with for the day. What I wish i hadn't done however was eat the choc wedge, and the lifesaver ice pole I had about 30 minutes ago. Here is a screen shot of my day.

Hopefully I can try and get myself a little more motivated and start enjoying my life. I hate the fact that I am 36 and that I feel that I have wasted a lot of my life. I love love love my little girl to pieces however I am in a rutt and have been for a long time. I have been single for the past 5 or so years except for a 5 month relationship in between which was a total MISTAKE and for those five months I have no idea what I was thinking. Now even though I feel like I am perfectly happy being on my own I am sure that if I found the right guy I could be a hell of a lot happier.

Disappointments

Sometime perhaps I just expect to much but I have found going back a few years I have been disappointed at certain things that happen in my life, perhaps I am just too sensitive but it makes me feel that perhaps certain people in my eyes to me are 'very important' but perhaps the feelings are not totally mutual. I am not saying that I am not important to these people but I guess not as important as they are to me.

My first example goes back many many years ago when I was young, and single and wanted to go out and have fun on a Saturday night. My girlfriend and I would have planned to 'hit the town'. We would have been meeting at her place beforehand however quite often I would get to her place and she would just say something like 'do you just want to stay in and watch a movie?' This was often a real downer when you have been looking forward to something. It seemed like she had decided not to want to go out for a while however waited until I got there to 'drop the bomb', perhaps if I had been pre-warned I could have decided against going or made other plans. It was often disappointing.

Example two goes back about 6-7 years ago. I had someone who I considered a very good friend. She wasn't part of my group of friends from school as I met her from a workplace however we lived nearby to one another and would pop in to one another's homes a couple of times a week for a gossip. I considered her to be one of my best friends. I had also planned that if I was to get married I would have my two BFF's as a bridesmaids as well as her making it 3. This disappointment came when I wasn't even invited to her wedding.

Example three happened 2 days ago. It was one of my best friends weddings. I have known this girl for about 32 years and we have always been close friends. The first thing her 'husband to be' said to me on the wedding day was how special I was I guess because apart from her family I was the one person there who had known her the longest. When it came to the speeches however and at least 90% of the guests were mentioned in the 'thankyou's' I was missed! I wasn't the only one as 2 of my other friends were missed as well. I know this was just an over site however in my opinion it was a huge disappointment.

I value my friendships so much. I don't have a huge social circle which makes the dozen or so close friends that I have extremely important to me. These examples above however make me realise that perhaps I am not as important to others as they are to me.

Soineya

I read an interesting thing today while browsing various articles on my Ipad. Before I get into it though I just want to say how much I love love love Flipboard on the Ipad as well as Zite even though they are basically the same thing. Both of these are apps where you can just select categories that interest you whether it be News, parenting. Hollywood, TMZ etc etc and recent articles are shown. I then have also downloaded the app called ‘Instapaper’ because I can then put articles I may be interested in reading later into my Instapaper’ and I can read these ‘offline’ whenever I like which brings be to today's article.

Soineya:

I had never heard of Soineya before today. Soineya is known as a ‘Japanese cuddle club’ where people can sleep with strangers. My ‘sleep’ I actually do just mean sleep and maybe a few cuddles or spooning. This business was opened in Tokyo in September and allows people to ‘sleep’ with one of it’s female employees for a price. The females employed there range in age from 17 – 25 years.

Soineya isn’t a brothel but a ‘cuddle club’ where after paying an admission of 3,000 yen (about $38), customers select from a menu of sleep durations. For example for 1,000 yen (about $12) you are able to give the woman a foot massage, have the woman just look at you, or even get patted on the head. The strange thing is that it is more expensive to give a foot massage than it is to receive one.

The shop was opened by a gentleman named Koda and the woman hired have a vast range of costumes they are able to wear from a school uniform and a sailors suit. A standard job involves laying down on a floor mattress with the client for a minimum of 20 minutes to a maximum of 10 hours which could cost up to $630. One of the most popular services involves a Japanese man sleeping with his head on the woman's lap. This itself costs approximately $13 for every 3 minutes. If the client wishes to have the woman’s head resting in his lap the price is doubled.

The owner of this business firmly states that this is not a sex service but a place for men who feel lonely and may want to be with someone whether it be for a cuddle, foot massage or even a slap in the face (apparently quite a lot of guys go for that….)

Business has been open now for approximately 4-6 weeks and is apparently going really well!

(Strange strange strange)

Gambling

I was just having a look through my local paper and there was an article on gambling. It stated that people ion my area poured $88.5 million into the pokies in the last 12 months.... that is CRAZY.

I know all about those damn pokie machines because I to had a gambling addiction many years ago. I am not sure at what age it started but I would say about 19 or so. At the time I was dating a guy who liked to have a bet on the horses and of course that would lead us from the TAB to many trips to the casino. I don't even want to think about how much money I wasted doing this. It wasn't just in the evenings either as I remember at this time I was working at the local supermarket and even on my lunch breaks I would make my way to the local Taberet along with fellow work mates and would pour coin after coin into those damn machines. During some of this time I was living out of home and although I always made sure I had money for rent and bills I would have not much else. My parents were very worried about me and numerous times they would spy on me and confront me whilst I was pushing that damn button and most probably taking a drag on my numerous cigarettes.

There was one night when my parents and I went out for dinner to the local pub and coincidentally I happened to leave my jacket there. Then of course later that evening I just had to go back and pick it up and of course have a gamble. On this particular night I had a big win of about $5000. I was pretty excited and made up some story to mum and dad when I got home that I just put in $5 and JACKPOT. With that win I went out and bought myself a piano. God only knows why seeing I could afford the piano but with my gambling how in the world did I expect to afford lessons???? My gambling continued until I got myself into quite a bit of debt and to help me out of it my parents offered to buy my piano off me. This I am sure was just an excuse as they helped me out of my debt but they never took the piano. Anyway as time went on it got worse and worse. What I think I enjoyed was the fact that I could just sit at a machine and all of my problems etc just vanished and it was just me, the machine and my cigarettes.  Although this is a weird thing to say but in my opinion what cured me from my gambling addiction were in fact cigarettes. When the laws changed and smoking was banned in pokie venues I just wasn't interested in going anymore as It just wasn't the same. Leaving a machine to pop out for a quick smoke wasn't as enjoyable as when I could just do both at the same time.

I would never have thought I would say this but THANK GOD FOR CIGARETTES!

Now I should think about trying to quit those........ 

My Family stickers

So WDYT? See me personally am not a fan of the My Family stickers. I am sure you all know what I am talking about but just in case there is some lucky person out there who doesn’t know about them they are this is what it says online.

These fun ranges of family stick figure characters have been especially designed for you to be able to create your own unique sticker family. You can put My Family stickers on your car's back windscreen or side windows, stick them on your letterbox or wherever else you can think of! Families come in all shapes and sizes so it stands to reason that each set of My Family™ stickers will be totally different and will consist of a unique combination of stickers to suit the individuals in each family. 

So on the back of a car you may see something like this:

And while you are driving along you may think 'Oh look at that PERFECT' family. There is a successful daddy (seeing he holds a laptop) with a mummy who enjoys tennis whilst taking her son out for a ride on his bike with the dog happily running behind whilst waiting for the cute little girl to finish ballet!

 

So apart from the fact that I mainly just find them a little tacky I do wonder if they could be a bit of a security risk. Pretend for example I had them on my car. I would have a photo of a lady (me), a little girl (my daughter) and 2 dogs. So if some weirdo was to see those on my car then what is to stop him following me home and breaking in at a later date and doing some ‘god awful’ things to myself and MY FAMILY. Although this may appear a little extreme it could happen.

And to finish off, this is the sticker that I have on my car.

This is the sticker that I have on my car.

Time to get healthy!

Starting a health kick tomorrow. If all goes the way it usually does when I start a health kick I will probably last about 5 hours if I am lucky.

I spent some time browsing around the Iphone App store under weight loss and I got a few apps. One of them is called 'My Weight' which is really just an app to track your progress. I estimated my height at about 163cm because for some strange reason I always seem to forget my height. I mean it hasn't changed in about 20 years so why on earth can I not seem to remember it. I also entered a start weight in back on the 13th July of 85.5kg. I hadn't even started trying to be healthy then but now I am weighing in at 83.9kg so that is already 1.6kg without trying! It also tells me that my BMI is 32.77 which puts me in the OBESE class. I guess on the plus is the fact that at my heaviest about 3 years ago I weighed in at 99kg so I have made quite a big change but not big enough for me to feel healthy and happy and attractive.

Another app that I got is called 'Weight Loss'..... well that was a depressing app. What this one does is you type in what your weight is and it brings up what you should look like at that particular weight. When this pic appeared I was quite shocked!

I didn't think I looked quite so...... cuddly!

So now for my goals and to be honest I am not going to go at it 'hard core' because I will have no success that way. I know even if I manage to lose a maximum of 500 grams a week it is better than nothing.

Another app I got is called 'Weight Loss' tweek a week. All this one is a list of different weekly tweeks to try and get you into a better frame of living. The first tweek is to 'Drink enough water', well this in itself will be a challenge for me because I hardly drink any water. It says that our bodies need between 1-2 litres of water a day and I would be lucky to have a mouthful when cleaning my teeth. I decided when I was at the supermarket to just by one of the biggest bottles I could find and I ended up bringing this baby home.

I had never seen this brand of bottled water however the reason I picked it was because it would fit in the drink holder in my car. It holds 1.5 litres. The only way I am going to be able to drink 2 of these bottles if I force myself to as early as possible in the day. If I manage to drink 2 then I will reward myself with a Coke Zero! One thing I know water will do is help to regulate me which is a bonus.

The last app I got is one called 'I CAN' which is Hypnotherapy. I purchased the one called 'Lose Weight' (obviously) It is read by some guy called Donald MacKinnon who is Scotish and just from having a quick listen I hope I can keepup with the accent. The app doesn't look overly 'user friendly'. All it has on it is an introduction to Donald and then you just press 'PLAY' and the session begins. I have no idea how long the thing goes for though. I thought of just going off to sleep with it on, just hope little Miss 7 who sleeps with me every night (did I mention she is 7!!!!!!) doesn't wake up when it is on. Who knows, maybe Mr MacKinnon can be a miracle worker.

STATS AS OF Sunday 22nd JULY

Starting weight: 85.5kg (July 13th 2012)

Starting BMI: 33.4

Current Weight: 83.9kg

Current BMI: 32.77

Total lost: 1.6kg

Wish me luck!!!!